Book Update: 100 pages, 64,450 words. :] And still not done. Yeah, I'm pretty proud of that I've written this much in a little bit more than two months. Yup. I'm beasting it. I just hope I can be finished before another month goes by. I'll need to actually do homework tomorrow though. Blah. Boo. Stupid school and knowledge and whatnot. Maybe I'll do a little bit of that before going to bed. Hm. Yeah. That sounds better than leaving it all for tomorrow and Monday. :] I'm in a good mood.

"it's really nice when you can just
think about someone and smile."

"Been dreaming of you before
And now it's true
My heart is beating just for you"

Today: Got to drive to and from school. Had an interesting Criminology class period... for once. Math was really super easy, I even finished the example questions before he was done teaching. And and anddddd I finally introduced myself to the cute guy, Justin, in my Government class. :D Yeah. I'd say this was the best day in a really long time. It was definitely exactly what I needed.

"And you never were,
and you never will be mine"

I keep telling myself I need to finish writing this story. But I really don't want to anymore. Infact, I'm at the part where it gets all juicy... our first kiss... but honestly, I'd rather not have to write about it. It'll just piss me off. Apparently he's been dating his new girlfriend for a month now. Gross. Have a fun month and a half before the two of you break up... that's how long most of his relationships last. At least the last two. Hm. But at the same time maybe I should just finish writing it so I can be done with it and move onto a story I'll actually care about. I need to start brainstorming for ideas. :] Momma and I are going to make French Toast tomorrow morning, then go out driving. I've been eating better, and will definitely fully fulfill that once I'm done with my Halloween candy. haha. And I've done execrises for my abs everyday... which is the one thing I really need to fix. Mhm. Life... is pretty good right now. You know, expect for barely having any friends and not having a guy. But eh, what's that really? Especially since I still have some pretty super people in my life. Yay postive outlooks!

"We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick;
without wanting to, without believing it,
against our will & unable to defend ourselves.
And then we lose love exactly the same way"

My stomach hurts and my heart is pumping really loudly and quickly. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I know I'm an idiot who didn't do her homework. And maybe it's because I realized that Matt doesn't care about me AT ALL anymore. I ate too much Halloween candy. I'm really distracted right now. I don't want to go to school tomorrow, I just want to stay up and write and keep writing and just write until I'm done with this damn story that I don't have the patience or the desire to write anymore. I want to finish this story, give the boy his damn car jack back, get my purple suspenders back from him that I let him borrow THREE MONTHS AGO, and be done with him... completely. Ah. And I want to already have my license so that I can drive myself around and leave my house when I want to. And I'd like a life. And I'd like to already be at the stage of working out where I actually see results. I'm scatterbrained right now. Maybe all I really do need is sleep. That still doesn't change the fact that I do not want to go to school tomorrow. Especially in classes where I don't learn things that I'm going to need for my tests. Blah. Frustrating. I really need to start going to bed at a normal time again. My tummy really really hurts. Damn candy.

"You're always on the edge of my mind.
Memories of you feel like they're miles wide."