I miss my past life. Maybe not entirely. But there are definitely many factors that I miss. But the past is the past. Nothing will bring that back. So all I have to do now is realize that I haven't changed my life into what I should have in the past year. So I will be taking this next year to actually make a big impact in my life. So that I can look back at this time and see it as something that I can be proud of. This time next year, my life will be different. Maybe I'll create a list of the things I want to change later. But right now I must sleep... I've got a busy day ahead of me, you know, it being the first day of me changing my life and all. :]

1. Sexual Orientation: 
straight. 

2. What I'm really bad at: 
Texas Government apparently. haha. 

3. The one person who's arms I'd like to be in: 
Justin. 

4. My best first date: 
I've only really had a couple first dates, and none of them were that great.

5. A description of my self-esteem: 
Depends on my day. 

6. Who my best friends are: 
Justin. Jordan. Mary. Chris. 

7. My favorite book: 
Harry Potter series, The Pact, The Outsiders.

8. Biggest turn offs: 
Immature sense of humor. Jackass.

9. A description of my best friend: 
They are all hilarious people who make me smile. Every moment spent with every one of them is fantastic. :] 

10. My favorite animal: 
penguin. 

11. Someone I miss: 
my sister. :/

12. The reason behind my last break-up: 
He told me when we kissed it was like kissing a sister. Whatever. I got Justin in the end. :]

13. What I did yesterday:
Finished my Halloween costume. Watched World Series with my parents. Went to the park with Justin.

14. What my greatest achievements are:
Getting 100 pages into my first novel in less than a year. :] 

15. A description of the person I dislike the most:
...I've tried this thing called being positive... so I'm not answering this question. 

16. My favorite songs right now:
In the Mourning-Paramore. 

17. How my last kiss went down:
I was dropping Justin off at work. "Have a good day." "You too. I love you." -kiss- "I love you too."

18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex:
Dark hair, blue eyes, or Justin... who's the complete opposite of that. :] haha. 

19. All of the pets I've ever had:
My dog who lived for seventeen years, Shadow. A cat when I was in first grade named Dusty. And another cat we've had since I was in second named Sugar.

20. Favorite flavor of ice cream:
birthday cake ice cream. om nom.

21. The one place I want to be right now:
Somewhere interesting?

22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me:
... 

23. Where I have lived before:
Just Texas. :/ 

24. I'll love you if..:
you make me laugh, and like reading my stories. :] 

25. What are my future plans:
Novelist.

26. An internal conflict I have with myself:
Forcing myself to stay in College. 

27. What I'm doing tomorrow:
Working with my dad, continuing to pack for moving.

28. What I want to be when I get older:
NOVELIST. 

29. Most embarrassing moment:
I can never remember it when asked. 

30. Two of my insecurities:
Weight, not being good enough.

31. What I would do if I won the lottery:
Donate some, then help my books take off. 

32. A description of the boy I like:
Extremely tall, shaggy blonde hair, pretty brown eyes; hilarious, dorky, adorable, AMAZING guitarist and musician in general, sexy, my favorite person in this entire world. :] 

33. What I love most about myself:
My personality is unlike anyone I know. 

34. My biggest pet peeves:
being interrupted. 

35. What bands I've seen live:
Maroon 5. Cobra Starship. Forever The Sickest Kids. All Time Low. Paramore.

36. How many kids I want in the future:
two. 

37. My idea of a perfect date:
Something random and fun. :]

38. What I'm really good at:
Writing.

39. Most traumatic experience:
... 

40. Where I would like to live:
Colorado.

41. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me:
"You are the most perfect person for me."

42. Do I like where I am right now?:
yes. absolutely. 

43. What I can hear right now:
Taylor Swift. 

44. My relationship with my sibling(s):
I'm best friends with both of them. 

45. My biggest worry currently:
getting in shape. moving at the end of this week. school.

46. Something I've wished for repeatedly:
True love... which I found. :D

47. My relationship with my parents:
I'm good friends with both of them.

48. Something I should have said a long time ago:
"I'm sorry." 

49. What my last text message says:
A lot of words. 

50. What I hate most about myself:
Paranoid. 

51. Biggest turn ons:
Dorky, awesome sense of humor. Adorableness. 

52. What words upset me the most:
... 

53. What I hate/hated the most about school:
my texas government professor. 

Life is beautiful. Sometimes you've got to look at it as a whole to realize it all. But it's there. Some people don't ever get the opportunity to truly appreciate it, or realize the beauty that is in life. So if you're one of the few who does, you're lucky, and you need to take advantage of it. The majority of the people who notice the beauty in the world are the people we call, artists. We artists are the speakers for what makes this world beautiful, and we are great at harvesting the true emotion that we feel, and forming it into an art that is no one else's... our own creation to add to the world... to add to it's beauty. Something about life that interests me the most is the way that it changes so quickly, and then you look back and realize that years already divide you from the things that happened so recently. I first thought I fell in love five years ago. I actually fell in love a year ago. I meet one of my greatest friends six years ago, the other when I was five years old. I was The Incredible Hulk for Halloween three years ago. And less than a year ago, I was starting on my novel, and now I'm 100 pages into it. So much changes so quickly, that it amazes me we don't all go crazy from the shock. There are so many different types of people in this world. So many different personalities, and so many different appearances. We have so many languages, and cultures. And no person is like another person, but there are billions of us everywhere. We, as a human race, amaze me. And as humans, we are a very small percentage of all living things... and this includes parts of nature. I could go on, but I all the sudden just got really tired and I have class in the morning. So I guess ends my rant.

"And when you cry, a piece of my heart dies.
Knowing that i may have been the cause.
If you were to leave and fulfill someone
Else`s dreams, i think i might be totally lost."

When was the last time you talked to the last person you kissed?
Probably a couple hours ago, he's too busy with band rehearsal right now to talk. :] I'm witnessing history in my living room right now.

What is something you're currently nervous about?
My sister being in labor right now... she's in Greece, and I'm stuck in stupid America.

Do you watch a lot of television?
Nope. I am not willing to pay for it.

Do you prefer to kiss with lipstick or bare lips?
bare lips.

Do you eat the pizza crust or just throw it away?
eat it.

What did you have for breakfast today?
I just had a white chocolate mocha from work.

Did you skip class at all this past week?
I start tomorrow. :/

Did you ever have a really close friend move away?
yes.

Are you the type to make friends or enemies?
friends.

Would you ever get your lip pierced?
It is pierced. 

Have you ever been to New York City?
I would see it over the shore in New Jersey, but I've never actually been there.

How did you spend your Valentine's Day?
Justin and I just hung out.

How many times did you go to the hospital last year?
never. 

Are you wearing jeans right now?
Indeed I am.

Are you a patient person?
About certain things, yes. But some other things, not so much.

Do you sleep with a fan on?
no.

Do you own skinny jeans?
indeedly so. that's really the only kind of jeans I do own.

Are you counting down for anything?
The Lion King to be re-released into theatres.

If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be?
GREECE. To be with my sister. :/

Does your hair have layers?
Grown out layers.

Do you call it fall or autumn?
fall.

What was the last thing you spent money on?
Beer.

What was the last thing you kicked?
Hell, if I remember.

When is the last time you had fast food?
Today, for lunch. I didn't have anything to pack from home. :/

Who are you currently frustrated with?
My boyfriend's mom. 

Are you wearing any clothes thatdon't belong to you?
Nope. All mine. 

What do you have pierced on you?
Only my lip. Yup, my lip, and not my ears. 

Do you blow dry your hair?
I don't own a blowdryer. 

Are you shy?
I am at first. But once I know people, I'm not at all.

Do you like music?
i love music.

The last person that hurt you texts you and says, "I'm really sorry for screwing up, forgive me?" you say?
I don't know what I say, but I'd give them a chance, because I'm starting to grow up and realize that people make mistakes.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
I didn't used to, but now, I do. 

Did you forgive the last person who hurt you?
Yes. 

Have you ever slept on your couch with someone else?
Mhm.

Would you like the ability to read minds?
No thank you. 

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
No.

What time did you wake up today?
9.

Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
Not really anymore. The past is the past.

Are you taller than 5’5”?
Nope. I'm super short.

What do you look like right now?
I'm still in my work clothes.

Connection between you and the last person who messaged you?
We've been best friends since we were freshman.

Could you cry right now?
no.

What was the last thing you cooked yourself?
eggs.

Anything upsetting you?
nope.

Has someone ever looked you straight in the eyes and told you a lie?
yes. 

Do you believe you should change who you are for the person you love?
If it has to do with something endangering your life, I'd say yes. But otherwise, no. 

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

jim. 

What makes you mad?
a lot of things haha. being interrupted, fake people, liars, cheaters, and the list goes on.

Do you have any bruises?
one, i think.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yeah.

What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
going to Guam to see jim! 

How many people have you kissed in the last 2 weeks?
none.

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 100 hours?
Kissed, my boyfran. And hugged, some pals and Justin.

Has anyone told you a secret lately that you aren't allowed to tell anyone?
No.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Justin.

Is anyone ignoring you right now?
No. 

Do you have a best friend?
A couple. 

How long does it take you in the shower?

Not long.

Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
I would punch that bitch in the face. 

Last place you went besides your house?
Veteran's park.

When was the last time you were sick?
December/January... being sick during New Years was awesome.

I can't sleep, so this is happening:

10 Facts About Your Physical Appearance

10. My eyes are either blue, green or a grayish tone... depending on the color shirt I'm wearing.
9. The bottom of my hair is red, middle dyed blonde, and the top my natural blonde. I dyed my hair red over two years ago, and half a year ago decided I wanted my natural blonde again, so I decided to grow out my hair, so I dyed it blonde, and am waiting for my color to grow out... it's. taking. FOREVER.
8. I have what I like to call, "killer legs".
7. I never have to get fake nails, because my nails are naturally tough and long... it takes a lot for me to break a nail.
6. My nose is the perfect size.
5. My bottom row of teeth are crooked, while my top are straight because of braces... I just never got bottom braces for some reason.
4. My hair is naturally big wavy... almost curly... but not quite.
3. I think I have cute feet.
2. I am short... super short... 5' .5''... two and a half inches taller than the requirements to be considered a midget. [Almost the same height as Danny Devito.]
1. Even though I am a tiny person, I have a big butt, and big boobs.

9 Things You Want To Do Before You Die

9. Become friends or acquaintances with an older, wiser British man, who has stories that will change my perspective in life.
8. See the Northern Lights.
7. Live in the mountains, outside of society.
6. Tour the world with Justin's band. :]
5. Meet J.K. Rowling.
4. Act in a television or movie role... however small.
3. Throughout my lifetime, live in as many different types of places as possible.
2. Paint a masterpiece.
1. Become a beloved novelist... is definitely my number one dream. 

8 Facts About Your Sex Life

8. I lost my virginity at 19, to the guy I am currently with.
7. I'm pretty sure I like sex more than my boyfriend.
6. I always have some type of light during sex.
5. Morning sex is the best sex.
4. I think sex is an important and valuable part of yourself, so even if I don't end up with the guy I'm with now, I will still take delicate care in deciding whom I have sex with.
3. Being manhandled is extremely sexy to me.
2. Porn weirds me out, I just don't like thinking about other people having sex... maybe it's because I get mental pictures stuck in my head easily.
1. I remember always being grossed out by the thought of oral, but now that I'm actually having sex, it's sometimes my favorite part. 

7 Traits You Look For In The Opposite Sex

7. Intelligence, the type of intelligent that helps me view part of the human life in different way.
6. Attractiveness.
5. Someone who can be dorky ridiculous like me, but also can be the person everyone likes.
4. Being humorous, of course.
3. Someone with great creativity.
2. A person who pushes my boundaries.
1. Someone who believes in my dreams and goals for myself, and who believes in theirs.

6 Places You'd Like To Visit

6. Italy.
5. England.
4. Greece.
3. Lithuania. [I'm half Lithuanian.]
2. Ireland.
1. France.

5 Favorite Bands/Artists

5. Maroon 5. [old school maroon 5, mostly]
4. Paramore.
3. Coldplay.
2. Tom Petty.
1. Justin's band. I don't feel like releasing their name on here, but one day... the world will know them. :]
 

4 Sports Teams You Like:

4. NEW YORK GIANTS. [are my number one for the rest of my life.]
3. Pittsburgh Steelers.
2. Indianapolis Colts.
1. Green Bay Packers.

3 Parts Of Your Heritage

3. Lithuanian.
2. Spanish. [Spain Spanish, not Mexican.]
1. Norwegian. 

2 Things You Don't Leave The House Without

2. Phone.
1. ID.

1 Confession

1. Justin and I are going to become everything we ever dreamed... so novelist for me, and rock star for Justin. :]

"Maybe all our lives we hold onto these
Undying hopes that our first love will come back someday.
Maybe someday we do in fact move on,
But we always have that little nagging hope in our heart.
And maybe we`re supposed to always love that person,
Even just a little,
Because they showed us how to love."